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14 April 2010 @ 03:52 pm
some shit needs realizing  
I am terrified of fuckup. This becomes evident in everything I do. It's why I'm shy. It's why I'm awkward. It's why I think I'm terrible at everything. And it's really obvious when I *do* fuck up, because I feel terrible for the next n units of time (fluctuates depending on severity of fuckup).

Friendship boundaries are an easy place to fuck up. And escaping from said fuckup is difficult. Honesty helps, but it does take a while to get back the comfort that led to fuckup.

If I was a better writer/cared more, this would be a much more awesome post.
I'm feeling:: embarrassedembarrassed